Can you see me standing here

trying to find your fleeting smile?

It's been a long and painful search

I've been looking for a while

You have these eyes that blindside me

like a fisted slap to the face

A touch that makes me feel so welcome

when your expression puts me out of place

Sitting in a darkened room

I let the shadows make me host

Wondering why you do this to me

Why I love the one that hurts me most