Why do I do this,

have these thoughts,

bring such pain,

cry so hard,

How do I do this,

get so low,

yet survive,

fool you,

I bring it on,

its all self torture,

all mental,

self-mutilation,

Not physical,

mental,

fake,

imagined,

Yet examine it,

cut it open,

tear it apart,

It all seems so real,

so hard,

so important,

But its not,

so why do I make it?