I fall, even farther away

from what I had

from words I said

and scalding hatred

to bitterness and disgust

what have I become

what have I become

nothing in the eyes of one who

meant the most

only days ago

thoughts and feelings

disabused

what have I become

what have I become

but a fool in my own mind

no-one else

seems to care

yet I still do

why?

what have I become

what have I become

but my own scapegoat

a place to lay my own blames

never caring again

my losses overwhelming

because I wanted to be honest

what have I become

what have I become?

Please tell me

I no longer know