Every turn

I made was an error

every lesson learned

a mistake

every word I ever spoke

was shrouded in falsehood

every time I tried to comfort

it was for only my benefit

every time I was their for you

it served my own twisted needs

every time I gave freely of myself

I somehow meant to hurt you

every time I stood up for you

I shouldn't have

every time I gave you my shoulder

it was so I could increase my control over you

every time I made you smile

I only made you angrier

every time I refused another person so I could be with you

I was being selfish

every time I thought I was being your friend

I was only fooling myself