There’s a bitterness growing in me
Bitterness for you, whom I love so much
I love you so, I can’t stand to be near you
I want to hurt you
Badly

I need to send you far away from me
Me, who does not deserve to be near you
You, who does not deserve to know me
I should be alone
Completely

None should know my name, my thoughts -
My dreams, so sad
My wishes, so pitiful
Impossible things

You whom I love, you should hate me
~ Despise me, leave me on my own ~
Tears fall as I silently beg you to disappear
I don’t have the strength to leave you...
~ I am weak, clinging to your imagined love ~

Leave me, please, just leave!

Forget about me, lose all memory of me
...... I will still have you in my mind
And the bitterness of what could have been.....